Friday, July 30, 2004
short meditation on love from lacy's journal
Hello hello hello, is there anybody out there?
Well hello again! It's been a while! I love to see your shining smile!
I feel like I've been neglecting my blog a bit... Poor thing. It's getting a bit wilty and forlorn looking, don't you think? I've just been awfully busy lately. You see, this week, I've been doing actual WORK at work, and that's rather a new concept for me. In addition, this whole fan fiction thing has gotten me writing like I haven't written in years. For those of you who think I'm insane to do it (and you may well be quite right) let me just legitimize it by saying that in the last two weeks I have been exercising writing muscles that have long lay dormant. I am stretching and flexing and taking little jaunts into the world of narrative prose and it feels wonderful. Oh, certainly, my little exercises in blogging have helped tremendously. They were like walking around a bit before the race began. But this story is going to be long. It's going to have a complicated plot. It has characters that need to mature and grow and be happy and sad and excited and afraid and everything in between. So all right, they're not all my characters per se, but they've given my writing new life, and for that, I think they should be praised.
You see, I honestly thought I might have lost it. It's one thing to say to yourself, "Oh, writing is like riding a bicycle. You never forget." While that may indeed be true, when was the last time you sat on a bicycle? A part of me thought I had forgotten. A part of me didn't even want to go near the proverbial bicycle for fear that my attempts to ride mightn't be as good as they once were, back when I was in practice.
Terrible extended metaphors aside, if nothing else, this little bit of fluff has morphed into a religious experience for me, reminding me that I do, in fact, remember how to do this and -- wonder of wonders, miracle of miracles -- I do, in fact, still love it.
So bear with me any of you who still read this blog. I will not forget you entirely as I go my merry way with my random fan fiction flights of fancy. I will remember the humble beginnings of my renaissance and continue to blog, not matter how sporadically it may be.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Buhler... Buhler... Anyone?... Bulher...
The first time I ever saw Empire Records was from the floor of Mrs. Gerard's Latin classroom at about 4 o'clock in the morning with Michael and Suzanne and Julie. We'd had a disgustingly long rehersal for the musical (Once Upon a Mattress I think) and subsequent lock in, but everyone who was sleeping in the auditorium wasn't really sleeping, they were making all kinds of noise, and Suzanne had the key to her mom's classroom, so we went up there and watched movies and slept on the cold hard tile floor. I think we had sleeping bags, but it still wasn't very fun.
I don't really know what the point of telling you all of this was, except that I really don't want to work. I think I'm going to go to lunch.
Hello all!
Sorry I haven't been blogging much in the last week or two. My brain has been wholely consumed with the mild obsession of writing a Harry Potter story. Yes I know. It pains me to admit how much of an obsessed freak I am, but you probably wouldn't be reading this if you didn't already know me pretty well, so this is probably old news...
ANYWAY... Brandon and I have been pouring our combined talents into creation of said Harry Potter story. It picks up where book five left off because I just can't stand the suspense any more, so we decided to make up our own sixth year. It's called Harry Potter and the Sect of the Serpent.
If you'd like to look at it, here's a link:
http://www.fanfiction.net/~lacylu42
It's much too long to post on this blog. In fact, although I've only published two chapters, I'm already working on writing chapter six and I'm already up to more than sixty typed pages. So no worries about being left hanging!
If you read it, please review it and let me know what you think. Brandon and I LIVE for those reviews. =)
Monday, July 19, 2004
dream this morning
I was living in the apartments at CSF, or some very like them, and I was going up my stairs and I found my childhood teddy bear sitting outside the door of my apartment. So I picked it up and went inside, and once I was inside, Allison came in the apartment and told me that I had left my laundry in the dryer and that now some guy had it, but she had rescued my bear for me. And I said thanks, and that it was OK, because I hadn't put any of my underwear in that load.
Then my sister was there and we walked across the street to Richardson Square Mall and we were walking around there and she was telling me about her classes and how hard they were, and then I went back to my apartment, and Aaron was there and he was drunk because they were having a party downstairs and he wanted to show me these Polaroid pictures he had taken of his friend Trey (who, as far as I know, is a figment of my imagination) while he was drunk and how he didn't have any clothes on. And I kept laughing and acting like it was funny, but I really just wanted to go to bed. And then the party moved upstairs to my apartment and this girl I knew in high school, but wasn't really friends with, Carrie Williamson was there and this guy Trey and everybody ended up asleep on my bed except me, because I couldn't get comfortable with all these people all around me.
Friday, July 16, 2004
random french phrase of the day
Let's go to the fireman's dance.
That was on my French Phrase Calendar yesterday. As usual, I had to ask myself how often the average French person would need such a phrase, and then I recalled a play -- I think it's by Ibsen -- that some friends and I performed a scene from for a French competition. The play is called (in English) The Bald Soprano and, as far as I could tell, has nothing to do with either music or hair loss.
The scene we performed revolved around two couples having dinner together, when the doorbell rings. A fireman is at the door who quite politely asks if the couples have any fires which need to be put out. He is very disheartened to hear that the couples have not even a candle which needs extinguishing.
There really wasn't any point to this story, but there really wasn't any point to the play either, so I suppose it fits.
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Part One - Continued
"He can really get to you, can't he?" he asked, attempting to make his voice sound light. She looked up at him finally, her large brown eyes wide and frightened.
"Who is he?" she whispered. Charles had to give her credit. Her voice was controlled, even if the rest of her wasn't.
"He is... Alpha." He looked around to make sure that his sergeant was still safely outside and that the door was firmly shut. "To tell you the truth, Doctor, even I don't really know who he is, and I've been his guard for almost five years."
"Five years? He's – you've – been down here for five years?"
"He's been down here a lot longer than that. And I'll tell you this: this place -- his cell, these quarters – they weren't built in a day. These rooms were honed from solid rock without anyone in the entire central compound ever knowing it had been done. His cell is extensive. Really," he said looking around with a laugh, "this place is the cell. His is practically a mansion."
The Doctor leaned back in her chair. He could tell from her face that she was still trying to assimilate what was happening to her.
"It doesn't make sense," she said finally. "None of it makes sense. Why me? Why this assignment? I'm not at the top of my field, not even close! I work hard, and I do a good job, but I'm no prodigy. There are plenty of doctors older and wiser than I in my medical center alone who would be better qualified, so why did they pick me?" Charles shook his head.
"You don't have any idea?"
"Something he... Alpha... said. He said I resembled someone. That the resemblance was remarkable. And then he said 'Where in the galaxy did she find you?'" The young woman stared at him. "She who? Who was he talking about?"
Charles shifted uncomfortably in his chair. It was times like this that he was reminded that he was a man who knew too much. It was always a question of whom you could trust, how much you could reveal without it getting back to those you couldn't trust. The Doctor seemed to sense his reluctance. She leaned forward and set her tea on the desk.
"I can't work like this," she said simply. "I don't know how they expect me to help him with all of this cloak and dagger mumbo jumbo all around me. Hell, I don't even know what's wrong with him!" She looked at Charles intently. "You said you were beginning to be concerned for him?" Charles nodded.
"Well he's always been a bit odd. He's a genius, or so I was told. And he certainly seems to be. He's always tinkering with some bit of something or another or drawing something or reading something. The only things he ever asks for are books or data chips. But lately, lately he hasn't been himself. I never see him working on anything any more except a drawing. A drawing of a room, or a deck on a ship. I'm not sure. He hides it whenever I get to close." Anna frowned.
"Would you say he's becoming obsessive?"
"That's precisely the word for it. Obsessive."
"Well, being locked away like this can't be good for his mental health. I'd be shocked if he didn't have a few obsessions, a few quirks."
"But it's more than quirks, Doctor. I agree with you. A man cut off from the world for as long as he's been is bound to be a bit queer, but now he's started talking to himself, or to be more precise, to other people, as though he's having a conversation with them that no one else can hear." Charles bent and reached into a drawer under his desk and retrieved a file.
"My sergeant out there was the first to notice it when he was taking him his dinner. We thought for a while he might have somehow built himself a communicator, that he really was speaking to someone on the outside. We did a full sweep of the cell. Tore the thing apart." He pushed the file across the desk at her. "Pissed the hell out of him, too. But we didn't find a thing. It's all written down in there." The Doctor opened the file and glanced at the first page.
"Have you heard him?" Charles nodded.
"On several occasions."
"What does he say? Who does he think he's talking to?" Charles sighed. Poor old Alpha. It almost felt like a betrayal to bring this pretty young doctor in. Charles knew that Alpha's pride was about the only thing he had left, and bringing in a doctor would hurt.
"It sounds like he's giving orders sometimes, or discussing strategy. He'll say something like, 'We've got to go after them. They have something we need.' Things like that. Other times, it sounds like he's just chatting with friends."
"Have you ever heard him use names?" Charles nodded again.
"Only once. He was talking about someone who had died, I think. Or someone who was missing. I couldn't be sure."
"What did he say exactly?"
"He said, 'We have to keep searching. We have to know – I have to know if Blake is alive or dead.'" The Doctor looked at him quizzically.
"Blake? Are you sure?"
"Quite sure. Does it mean anything to you?" The Doctor shook her head. She was staring at her hands, probably thinking. Charles said nothing. Let her think.
"Commander," she said finally, "what will happen if I accept this job? Will they put me down here with you? With... him?" Charles was surprised. He heard the implication in her question and was impressed that she'd drawn the conclusion so quickly.
"You mean, once you get in, will they ever let you out?" She looked up at him again with those same frightened brown eyes. "I wish I could tell you. Where Alpha is concerned, they've thrown out the rule book. From the rumors I've heard from other men posted down here, for the crimes Alpha committed, he should have been executed a dozen times over. He gets anything he asks for – anything at all – no questions asked. And from what I've heard tell, the men who waste their lives down here, either disappear completely, or turn up as rich governors on outer worlds somewhere." He shrugged. "I didn't have anything to lose, but everything to gain by accepting this post. You, well I don't know about you." The Doctor leaned forward and glanced around.
"I'm afraid I already know too much," she whispered. "I'm afraid that if I turn them down, I might just disappear like the men you mentioned." A chill went down Charles' back. She was right of course, and it made him feel sick. He didn't say anything.
Suddenly, the intercom on his desk buzzed. He pressed the speaker, and his sergeant announced that the Doctor's escort had arrived to take her back to the surface. They both rose in silence.
"They've told me I'll be given a week to make my assessment and decide..." she said before he opened the door, "So I guess I'll see you again." Charles swung open the heavily reinforced door.
"I look forward to it."
On the top floor of the central compound, Martin Faure was feeling decidedly ill at ease with his orders. He had shuffled the meaningless papers on his desk several times already in a vain attempt to keep his mind occupied as he waited for his next instructions. Still his mind tumbled over and over the things he knew, and the much more numerous things he did not know.
The intercom on his desk buzzed, and he was glad. No matter how terrible a thing is, it can never be worse than the anticipation of it.
"Good evening Madam." He found that no matter how many times he spoke to her, the visage on the communicator screen never ceased to cause his stomach to clench and his teeth to grind.
"Supreme Commander. I trust things went according to plan."
"The Doctor arrived on schedule and I briefed her as you instructed. She had her first visit with the prisoner this afternoon."
"Yes, I know. It went well. Better than I had hoped."
"I'm very pleased to hear that, Madam."
"But I'm afraid that Alpha may have made your job a bit more difficult."
"How so?"
"He alerted the girl's already piqued suspicions. She's not a fool. Really, Faure, you must learn some subtlety. It is the thing that distinguishes rulers from subjects and kings from pawns."
"Yes Madam."
"It is imperative that our little ingénue make the right decision. She is the cornerstone of my plan."
"And if she should decline?" There was a pause, long enough for Faure to realize that his question was a foolish one.
"See that she doesn't Faure."
"Yes, Madam."
Friday, July 09, 2004
poll...
Please post your answer in the comments section below. =)
(Sneaky way to get comments, no?)
Email wishes and url dreams...
This happened to me today and I honestly have no idea how I got on the mailing list for this newsletter, but I really quite liked it. It's called Liquid Treat, and it's a digest of new trends, products, etc. that are interesting from a design point of view. To tell you the truth, I'm all for it! For example, after going to their website to see if I had ever been there before (which I hadn't), I stumbled across this little gem of a site called Uncommon Goods which hosts a collection of just that -- uncommon goods -- which are uncommonly well designed and not uncommonly expensive. For example, I loved the idea of a greeting card album. What a great gift for someone celebrating an occasion when they're likely to get a lot of nice cards -- like a graduation, the birth of a baby, an important birthday or a wedding (hint hint).
And as you all probably already know, I am a big fan of kitchen utensils, but I found all of the little gadgets in the helping hands category especially cute, whimsical, and uncommonly useful. =)
So hooray for the email fairy! She can send me THIS kind of unsolicited email any durn time she likes!